Statement

I had an eating disorder in college and part of it was binge eating. I desperately hid that aspect of myself while simultaneously fully consumed by the shame and self-hatred I felt. I cycled through the same emotions after each binge: the desire to disembody from myself, the physically painful and repulsive feeling paired with the emotional disgust, the acceptance that even though it happened, it would be the last time. But it never was. And the cycle would repeat. The creation of this piece was a form of healing, depicting how my shame functions and how I concealed what I was most ashamed of behind closed doors.